After the Storm

I raced around, trying to catch the words as they fell out of my mouth.
But they were slippery, and they ran to you.
Your heart tricked mine.
So I stayed the fool...   because I loved you.

I should have been more careful,
with the wishes that my heart made,
with the dreams that began to fade,
into nightmares with no wake.

You were so careful,
in mapping out the route, that I went were I was led.
Listening to 'I love you's'.. while you were fucking with my head.
Your betrayal wrapped warm, with smiles and good intentions.

I should have been more careful,
while you were polishing your lies,
but I never saw them coming because you kept them all inside.
Constructing your illusions, whispering sweet intrusions, into the corners of my mind.

You were so careful,
with the words that you used,
perfectly picked to deceive and abuse,
a love that would have walked with you forever.

Now you race around, trying to find the words that use to fall out of my mouth.
but they're not here anymore.
Your heart tricked mine.
And I was a fool...  to have loved you.

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"Every night that goes between
I feel a little less
As you slowly go away from me
This is only another test

Every night you do not come
Your softness fades away
Did I ever really care that much?
Is there anything left to say?

Every hour of fear I spend
My body tries to cry
Living through each empty night
A deadly calm inside

I haven't felt this way I feel
Since many a years ago
But in those years and the lifetime's past
I did not deal with the road

And I did not deal with you, I know
Though the love has always been
So I search to find an answer there
So I can truly win

Every hour of fear I spend
My body tries to cry
Living through each empty night
A deadly calm inside

So I try to say goodbye, my friend
I'd like to leave you with something warm
But never have I been a blue calm sea
I have always been a storm"

- Fleetwood Mac