Balls, I suck!! Not literally, those things are hideous and I try to stay the hell away from them for the most part. Usually I'm successful except for those drunken mishaps and of course valentines with the lights off. It's not the penis, that I'm TOTALLY fine with. But the balls? That's a no go. What is up with them anyway? They just hang there. weird. unattractive. I just don't "get" them.
But I digress. I was referring to the fact that I haven't posted anything for over a month. I've been slacking up a storm on that front. My apologies to the 2 of you who actually read this with any kind of regularity. In my defence I have been busy. I have 2 kids under the age of six, and I'm knee deep in season 5 of Angel, so those are biggies right there on the priorities list. With all that going on something had to take a backseat, and apparently I decided that healthy self expression and introspection were the first to go. Not my smartest decision, not my dumbest either.
However processing feelings and thoughts in your head is SO not the same as seeing/reading/analyzing them on paper. For me it makes everything clearer. Helps me understand myself, motives, needs, feelings SO much better. Plus, it is a total release. It feels like I let it go, like I allow it to be shared, even if sometimes I'm only sharing it with me. It gives "grown up sane me" a chance to process everything, instead of "crazy emotional me" making spontaneous self preserving decisions without consulting reality.
So in summary it's really good to be back. Summer will be busy but I will make an extra special effort to tend to my mental needs and write.
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