I dreamt of you today

I had a dream and you were in it. You were crying. I asked what was wrong,
and you lied. I could tell by the look in your eyes. They speak the truth even when you don't. In that instant my heart dropped, and I felt that same familiar sinking feeling in the pit of me, one that I haven't felt for years where you're concerned. I can feel it even now, when I'm awake, and it still feels real.

but I need you to know something. Even though this was a dream, I can feel the truth in it. You're keeping something from me, and it's hurting you. I want you to know, that I forgive you.

I forgive you for feeling embarrassed to show weakness, even to me.
I forgive you for not confiding in me because I'm the voice that will tell you, out loud, all the reasons why it's wrong, and you aren't ready to hear that.
I forgive you for not trusting me and thinking that I'll judge you.
I forgive you for being ashamed to admit that you're scared. Scared to admit that you don't always have the answers, and that you aren't sure of your decisions. Scared to admit that maybe you're not perfect, even though I know everything about you, flaws and all, and still you're perfect for me.
I forgive for you for not loving yourself enough, enough to believe in the goodness that is in you. You ARE good.

but none of that matters, me forgiving you isn't what's important. For you to really move past any of this and move forward you need to forgive yourself. That is something I can't do for you.

I am here, and will be, whenever you need me.
More importantly I love you, unconditionally.

I had a dream, and you were in it, and you were crying, and I heard you, and I saw your pain, and I'm here, and I just wanted you to know.