All Uncovered

"If the world should end in ice,
In days of endless night,
I'll let the snowstorms cover me
In a blanket of white..." - the handsome family

Today after all these years..
all this time, I did the unthinkable..
I gave words to the evil I bore witness to.
I accepted my failing you, and willed myself to walk that road once more.
I opened that door to the past...willing myself, still so afraid to look back.
I've never spoke of it, never let it breath.
Did everything in my power to strangle it. Kill any trace of it in me.
And I left it there dead in the road.
but all it's done is rot and decay.
The smell of it lingered, in the background of it all.
Of all the moments between then and now..
Now I'm ready, ready to burn what's left of it,
before it's smell becomes my own.
before the scent of me is completely gone.
I'm all grown up now, and still I can't save you,
but maybe there's still a chance to save myself.