Things that I've learned.

 I've learned that You can't bring back something once it's gone. You can remember it. Be grateful for it, for the time you had. But that's all. No amount of need, want or love can change or bring back what's gone.

I've learned that people lie to themselves about what's broken and what's gone, because they can't let go. Because broken offers hope that healing will come, and with it redemption. But gone is different. It's definite. It's permanent. And accepting this means accepting loss, and the forever kind of heartache that it brings with it.

I've learned that in this particular scenario it is nearly impossible to recognize when you're lying to yourself because although your heart always knows the difference between a lie and the truth, even when you brain doesn't, it does the unthinkable; As an act of self preservation it partners with denial and lies to your brain too.

That's why some of the smartest people believe the unbelievable. Stay when they should leave..close their eyes and embrace the familiar. Hanging on for dear life, afraid of the fall. Not realizing the crash already happened and that they are just existing, part of the wreckage.

I've learned that i'm not a masochist, i'm just in love and that there really isn't any difference.

I've learned that I know very little compared to what I thought I knew, and that I understand even less.

I've learned all the lyrics to: Baby I'm Amazed. Because I love it.

I've learned that being good at loving someone is life's great accomplishment, and that we should all strive for this daily